I Found the F

In less than 12 hours I will be out of my home and closer to hitting the road. I officially leave Tuesday, but in the days between now and then I'm still going to be away from home, staying with my girlfriend and bringing in the new year. I haven't seen Amanda in ages, but so far we've planned to spend a lot of money by seeing Brokeback Mountain, eating at Mikimotos and buying shit at the mall.

I'm trying to really think hard about all the shit I need before I leave. So far I have packed my razor, an extra pair of jeans, three or four shirts and two books (My newly acquired copy of "Metamorphosis" by Kafka and my work-in-progress, Burrough's "Junk"). I hope my copy of Blue Velvet comes in the mail before I leave tomorrow so I can bring that with me too. No matter what, I can't forget my blankets, pillows, ipod and/or my cellphone charger, otherwise I'm fucked. I also need to figure out what kind of food I plan on bringing along. Speaking of food, I just finished eating some microwavable mini-quesidillas, and they were quite impressive.

The show last night was pretty fucking crazy, like I expected. There must have been over 400 kids there, and the show was set up so it had alternating stages, so when the band finished all the people in the fucking place marched to the other stage. I just remember being all set up and just standing around waiting after we were all sound-checked and then all of a sudden seeing 400 people start marching towards me. I was so fucking nervous- at least, the most nervous I have ever been at a show. My heart is always a little racey, but this was a lot more intense. The crowd of 400 was probably cut down to 150 by the time we finished two songs. As I prophesied, people really didn't want to hear our shit. I think certain shows we play we really turn people off because most people just want it to be really simple, unchallenging and ultimately predictable. All in all, I wasn't heartbroken after I thought about it. It was a nice little tour warm-up and I am glad we played it because it would have sucked going into tour without having played a show for close to six weeks.

Let me also say that we should never go that long without playing a show. I was sore as shit today. I woke up at like 2pm and went straight to the shower. My post-shower painfilled day consisted of one almost compelete game of Genus III version of Trivial Pursuit with David, Ryan and the Dougler, one Old Milwaukee, one 40 of O.E. and 7 or 8 Ibuprofen. Passed out for about one hour. Woke up to being screamed at. Confrontation with family about not getting out of bed to get the vacuum cleaner from across the street, ended with me crying in front of everyone and walking around the block on the phone with Amanda until i regained my composure.

Phew.

I also need to update my musical devices so I can have new things to listen to. the ipod is already taken care of (NEW Bleeding Kansas, Mount Eerie, Broadcast's "Tender Buttons", One Dead Three Wounded, Entombed, Low, Pig Destroyer and Serena Maneesh), but I still need to update my phone.

Go to sleep Matt. Nobody cares.